The New Battle Plan

Hands off! That is what its gotta be. I am going to sit back and let people do their thing now. I have tried so damn hard to please everyone and get out of this shit without anyone getting upset. Once again, I find myself sacrificing my happiness for that of others. I am going to just chill, focus on the one or two things that are new and important in my life and go from there. To those of you who feel slighted by me, sorry. Its time for me to get control on my life - and that may mean you are going to be pissed off. Its nothing personal towards you, but it is personal towards me. Fuck chasing happiness, I am going to fight for it now. Until the next wave of maddiness, I bid you a big fat adios!

The battle rages on....

Well, it would appear the first shots have been fired. Yours truly was NOT the one to take it! No, in fact the Wiz himself has taken the first loss of the opening round. It would appear that a friend of 16 years has decided to end the friendship that we had in order to pursue.....wait for it......my ex-girlfriend! Suprised? I sure as fuck am. Of course, he is telling me that it has nothing to do with her. Apparently he is pissed about things that happened around ten years ago. Glad that people dont hold onto things. Then, as if that wasnt enough, he then has the balls to tell me that I am turning his family against him. Why would he say this? Because his brother told him what an idiot he is being. So, I am now at am impasse as to whether or not I should even try to be friends with the ex. By the way, she claims no involvement in the entire ordeal. I am sitting in the middle of a shit storm, with no end in sight. I will keep ya'll posted on further developments. Till then, I shall keep my helmet strapped on tight - lay low in the trenches - and avoid any and all enemy fire!

Somethings Never Change!

Seriously, I thought high school was over nine years ago! I cant believe how some people like to play the games that we all played in high school. I figured that once you became an adult things would be different. When a couple breaks things off, I had the disillusion that everyone could be friends and carry on normally. I had no idea that people would be jockeying for position and taking sides! Why do that?!? Not sure about you, but I know where I stand. The friends I had and the friends I made during any relationship will always, no matter what - be my friends. I wont ask anyone to pick sides, or to trash talk on the ex-mate. Life is too short people, and this shit came to an end a long time ago. If people want to pick a side, then so be it. Just remember that the day will come when everyone is hanging out together-and then you gotta face the person you sold out. Good luck!

Running in circles....in the dark....blindfolded

I need a break. I have got to get the fuck outta here for awhile. Away from a cell phone, and from a computer. I guess I have a tendency to ride out an emotion for a little longer than need be. Having said that, you should know that I am an over-analyzer. I take something and break it down over and over again. I used to try to see all aspects of something, and then look at it again. Finally, I have realized how tiring this really is. I am now going to start trying to just let it ride, and go with the flow. Not sure how long that will work before my brain over powers me, but I think its worth a shot. Could be something that will either a) work out well, or b) totally screw my head up even more. I will let ya'll know how this shakes out......